Dear Wound

Dear Wound..

i have nothing much to say to ya but here goes.
The reason i wanted you to confess was not to laugh at you. certainly not to make fun of you or just so u cud get rejected.  its not because i wanted to see how much u wud crawl to get your hands on a big candy promised as a reward. it is not because i wanted something to talk about with Aira and laugh at the outcome. You may not know it now cuz ur just wounded. i'm sorry to have put you in the hardship of facing rejection and for not being able to help you through..

Dear Wound
to be honest, i did this because i want you to learn some lessons that cannot be told by merely words and theoretically. a lesson that no way you can learn without going through the pain and the hardship. a lesson to let you know how hard it is to love. and to be loved.

Dear Wound
i wanted you to learn to speak for your own self. i wanted you to go to the person you liked and talk. on the behalf of your own self. i wanted you to speak through your lips and not others. i wanted you to stand up on your own. because we cant help you forever when you need a hand. we cant promise to always be on your side and stand up for you.

Dear Wound
i wanted you to learn to face your own fear and nightmares. to stare them in the face and give em a slap or two around. i want you to face up to them and tell them you're not afraid. cuz they said, the only thing to fear is fear itself. i wanted you to know what it is like to be free of them. i wanted you to learn to say good night to the monster under your bed.

Dear Wound
i wanted you to learn what its like to be the unwanted person. because no matter how u avoid it now, you will face it in the future and at the very least you will know how to coop with it. you will know how to handle rejections and you will know how to stand up again. i'm not talking bout the love rejection in particular but other kinds of rejections such as job rejections application rejections and stuffs.

Dear Wound
i wanted you to know that when you're down, all you have to do is to look up. you wont find anything underneath. the sky is so wide and there lies hopes and dreams that never were seen.

Dear Wound
and finally, now you will know that you and brad pitt (angelina jolie joke there get it?? ehehehhe) will never be together, you can rest easy knowing that.. but if you didnt, you will be trapped asking what if you never did ask? will he say yes or will he say no? what if?? what if?? what freakin if??? take the leap then you'll know..

Dear Wound
now you see why i did this. just telling you these without you being wounded will just be like licking a page of a recipe book. you know how it looks like but you cant feel it. so, i apologize of making you go through this but it is for your own good. now cheer up and play the ukelele!!! hahaha.. i digressed.. now that you know all these feelings you are a little stronger now. what does not kill you makes you stronger. you may not know it but u learned a lot and im proud of ya for facing it by yourself.

love, Death's Lullaby

we_eat_ice_cream!!!

tips from a noob for the noobs XD (︶ε︶メ)

okay people.. by request from Mr Ariel Ka Neko ero, here's a post..

basics of how to be a flirt..

when approaching a person u like
a) be yourself, dont be someone else.. if one day u shall become close to him/her, ur gonna show ur real self, by that time, if she hates the real you, you'll get dumped as a bf/gf or friend..

b) find a day where she/he is looks miserable, that way, she wants to be approached to know that even if she's in a temporary flaw, he/she is still beautiful. for example, bad hair day, zits.

c) be sensitive, dun approach him/her when he/she is pissed, tired and or both.. try to know what ticks her off, and stuff.. do some research before u go dammit.. must i tell u dat too??

d) NO LIES!!!! that shud be the lowest form of approaching a person.. tell the truth.. say that the person caught ur eyes and try to convince the person.. but try so the person does not see you as the stalker or anything as such

e)make eye contact.. try not to be too bold but not too shy, if ur too bold, the person wud think ur overconfident, too shy may result in the thoughts of ur insincerity or things like that.

f) never take the advantage of heart broken ppl..

when u have made your move
a)show that person ur actually sincere and dont rush if u want her to be ur partner. give em the space to think ur his/her friend.. let him/her know who u really are and try to learn as much from him/her.

b) dun brag about it to ur friends and tell em u nailed him/her.. avoid zina.. its a grave sin... if u haven't nailed him/her, dun tell ur friends u did.. its and insult to the person...

c)avoid skin to skin contact during the 1st phase of the friendship.. avoid it on the 2nd and 3rd.. the only time not to avoid it wud be after the ultimate phase (marriage)

tips-
never say yes to the 1st date invitation...
here's how the conversation shud go,
A"excuse me, do you think u want to get some lunch after this?"
B"im sorry.. but can i take a raincheck?"
thats one of the best way.. why??
because,

after u rejected that person, he/she it will ask u out again but this time, he/she will plan the trip, what shud the other person wear, what u are going to eat and get some $$ to buy you lunch and what to talk about therefore, the other person will be ready and ur going out with some someone good looking... and since he/she planned it, it'll go smoother.. not like the attempt the other day when he/she is not prepared....
for guys, its the costum that u have to pay for hers XD

The crap people talk about in their blogs i guess... but then again.. maybe not...

What's up blog!!
been a while eh?? yeah guess i've been busy dying at home.. oh well,
i don't really have anything to tell but here goes...
i read this one blog of a friend and i felt like writing this shit...
random ideas shall come out anytime soon...
okay... here's one..

Mira something..
when i say low mentality people, she's the definition of one...
what wud u feel when someone rang u up and started ditching shits about your mum...
well, thats 1 thing.. i dont really want to give away the details cuz its harsh enough that i put her name and called her low mentality but oh well,....
okay lemme ask you.. do you have a girlfriend or a boyfriend(or both?)
yeah if the answer is no, then high five!!! we're the same.. XD
okay but thats not what i want to say bout her ( and no, she's not my girlfriend.. yuck)
yeah and if u say you do, have u eva hugged or kissed ur girlfriend in public??
if yes, then aaaauuuuuwwwwwwwwww.... look at the dumb ppl reserving their plave in hell~~~~~
it's a violation of privacy, honor and so many shits!!!
once, she told me that "i get jealous when i see couples huggin and holding hands.. i mean COME ON!!!
if u love someone, you'd protect his/her/its honor.. not telling the whole world u nailed him/her/it!!!!
yeah man, you think it shows love, but have u ever thought it shows disgrace to the family??
and probably friends?? IF U ARE MARRIED then that wud be auww,, they love each other...
if ur not, then its aauuwwwww~~~~~ they are so going to get married this year..
what else can u do if u/ur gf is pregnant?? told ya to protect your honor..
idiot 1: dude ur a bitch!!! i use protection!!!
dear idiot 1, there's no absolute ways of being wholly protected in getting pregnant
okay i've side tracked... the point is, she's jealous cuz she aint getting nailed??
sucks...

I'm still human!! save mehh!!
okay.. today was my co-curricular activity...
so i've spot this girl.. she's pretty... well for me and i dun care whut u think so shaddup!!
anyyyways, i thought i cant really approach her but as i was heading back to the car (which my friend drove and friggin left me n Wan there)
i saw her passed by... and i was like "okay, 3rd time's the charm"
and the 3rd time i saw her, she was walking towards the bike area.. then i saw wan and fir...
as i told em to wait for meh, the girl got on a bike.. well, to approach her and talk to her on a bike, not a good story to tell the others of how we met... then again... it would... damn~
as i was saying, (side tracked again)
i was soo nervous just wanting to talk to her...
and i realize, im still a human.. i get nervous!! noooo DX
so, yeah... it's not that i want her to be my girl or anything, i just want to at least talk to her or something..
ohh well, that went down the drain XD
maybe next time bro!!

aaanyways, think i'm headin to bed now...
friendly reminder, this aint an educational blog or anything..
NEVER use this shit as a reference or anything as such...
it;s all about my view on life and what i think about em..
well, the comfy bed is calling muh name..
so long and good night

_icecream_

my promise to aira..
here goes.. i love aira..
she is my best friend.
she is cruel but i dont care.
i like hanging out w her in hell
its the place we go to for escapism..
we like to jog in the morning then hang out
then breakfast, and stuff..

lah lah lah.. XD
bleargh blearh bleargh

Sarah Shafeera

here we go!!

Sarah is a close friend of mine who lives somewhere near my house..

she was born 17th december (got this from her matrix card XD)

currently studying in UPSI diploma in English

likes, ppl with same mentality as hers, lolitha. black, white, silver,

her rat, her snakes,

camwhore, chatting, nail polish, twating around, girly stuff, mocha etc...

a narcissistic girl who enjoys looking at reflection of herself for long hours..

dislikes, mostly what i dislike,

low mentality ppl, shallow ppl, being called short, stalkers, BM essay,

plastic ppl, kids etc..

i like hanging out with her cuz 

both of us are weird and not afraid to admit it

she's always available when i am and it happens that we kinda clicked lately..

has the same retarded mind as i do,

creative in the sense of, you will never know what her answers wud be when u ask her somehting.

likes twating around

simple, good example is whenever i ask her to hang out with me, she'll wear a t shirt, sweat pants and a tudung, ready to go

i am scared of her (in a way) cuz,

she can be violent sometime (note, im a peace lover)

she has a weird taste of music

likes yaoi

blackmailing is her middle name

i can never say no to her (idk why)

whats weird about us

i treat her like a brother rather than a sister

(i call her dude, man and bro)

calls ourselves and each other twatards

or retwarts

whats not weird about us
NONE

what i like to say to her
"i need ta shait, be right back"
dude!!
come on bro..
ur a twat!!
shaddup retard
whattafark??
pyoon
oohh please~~~ i'll be ur bestfriend..

what i like about her
she has the same mental level as i have
she does not call me weird
she wont hate me for being who i am
she'll do anything thats stupid and or entertaining
has a mind of a child

extra notes,
 she likes drawing,
she lived in UK once, explains her gewd english
she recently dyed her hair red
nick-named aira labyrinthine.. god knows where she got the name..
she wants to be a male if she were given a choice b4 birth
she painted my nail black once
she plays the guitar, bass, violin and piano
i once went to her to learn how to play the piano but i phailed
haz a memory capacity of a spoon
one of the person who can really annoy meh

24th sept T^T

here's a random post XD
the story of an awesome boy going through hell..

the story started when the handsome hero woke up that morning..
muscle aches and head ache from the futsal game last night...
but he haz to go for his kitchen class that day.. which started at 8 and ended at 1..
bang bang bang boom boom, the kitchen was awesome but the dude was half dead..
he did some random carving on a papaya and stabbed the papaya when it failed him...

then he went home to his rent house...
unable to move, he found himself lying on the floor in front of his laptop....
paralyzed...
**********
omg! it's 7pm nao..
he was supposed to get his laundry today and when he rushed to the shop,
it was closed... grills went down, with an old rusted pad lock... securing the place...
awhh dammit...
he's going home and he does not have anything to wear..
this is bullshit!! he thought to himself...
so he went in his room, grab his university's co-curricular uniform and headed for the bus waiting area...
*********
when he gets there, a 702 bus to the jetty just passed..
what to do nao??
i'll just wait.. sighed the hero..
then, he waits....
then, a 709 bus came along...
ALL ABOARD!!!
********
the journey took almost an hour..then, dizzyness took over the awesome hero..
dammit!!! go straight to the jetty please!!
and there he was. just in the nick of time..
the train was about to leave..
go go!!! the hero held his ticket and the seat 7D was his...
unfortunately, next to him was a bunch of indians!!!
some were on a conversation, like loud!!
a dude was on the phone (dunno why he was yelling)
and some were texting and a loud indian song as his message tone...
and the hero stuck in between them...
noooooo...
in the end, he slept in the equipment closet...

-the end-

_ice cream_

When I'm gone

if ur reading this, i probably would be gone now..
maybe i didnt do anythin significant..
if you see me walking around, probably it's the ghost of me..
maybe it wud be cooler then i can stalk ppl all i want and you mortals cant do anything about it!
muahahaha!!!
bt here's what i want to say..
i'm not sorry for all the wrong doings and stuff..
i've lived my life to the fullest and the only regret i have is i didnt spend enuff time to work on my prayers...

dear mak and abah,
im sorry...
there's more sins to you than what i can write here..
you've raised me to become the man i was..
i'm sorry i've done things i did..
maybe it's time..

i have loads to say but i wont say it here..
maybe if we meet again in the distance future, you'll know..

what i am tryin to say is,
i am dead because i was murdered..
i've forecast this wud happen since long ago..
but i have decided not to go again fate..

Aira Labyrinthine (Sarah Shafeera) was the one who did it..

i have received some evidence that she might...

i hope it would help..

i wonder why though...

i thought the mochas were my peace offering...

i guess there's no stopping her now..

since im dead anyways, take all that i have and use it for something..

i dont think i can repay all of you..

and some ppl, rest assured, when i said im takin your secret to the grave,

thats what i did..

probably we can get coffee if we see each other again soon and talked bout how cool i am taking the secrets to the grave..

ahaha

so, thats that..

i dont wanna waste yer time reading this junk, please burn this letter after the police returns it to you...

i dont want it to be what you guys remember me by..

later all... when my time comes, forget the wrong that i've done,

help me leave behind some, reasons to be missed...